Flying High

You can't know, oh no
You can't know
How much I think about you, no
It's making my head spin
Looking at you
And you are looking at me
And we both know what we want
Hmmm, so close to giving in

Feel so nice

Oh yeah you feel so nice
Wish I could spend the night

But I can't pay the price

Oh no, no

But I'm flying so high
High off the ground
When you're around
And I can feel your high
Rocking me inside
It's too much to hide

I know, oh yes
I know that we can't be together
But, I just like to dream
It's so strange the way our paths have crossed
How we were brought together
Hmmm, it's written in the stars it seems

Feel so nice

Oh yeah you feel so nice
I'd love to spend the night

But I can't pay the price

Oh no, no

But I'm flying so high
High off the ground
When you're around
And I can feel your high
Rocking me inside
It's too much to hide

Back to earth
Where did you take me to
I know there's no such thing as painless love
Well it'll catch us up
And we can never win
But ohhh
I feel so alive
Ohhh
Just wanna hold you
Hold you so tight

But I'm flying so high
High off the ground
When you're around
And I can feel your high
Touching me inside
And it's too much to hide
And I'm flying so high
High off the ground
When you're around

En algún momento mentalmente le dediqué ésta canción a alguien. Ahora es de esas canciones que me costará escuchar a futuro. No hay nada peor que ocultar sentimientos y aún así ese parece ser mi único talento. Mil cosas en mi cabeza que no me dejan dormir... fack!.

Beauty is in the eye of the beholder...

A mi muchas veces me han acusado de "Tener Mal Gusto" y todo por que se me han cruzado dos que tres feos en el camino que me han gustado. Mal gusto no tengo, he visto a muchos hombres por el mundo y he pensado "Que guapo es" y realmente era guapo, pero con tres centavos de cerebro. Pero igual he visto feos y dicho "Jamás en la vida horrendo" y terminaron enamorandome. No es que tenga mal gusto, no soy una pendeja superficial que es totalmente diferente.

Para mi desgracia, jamás me fijaré en alguien con el que no pueda platicar, que no sea culto, que no se parezca a mi. Si, realmente, los hombres blanquitos, altos, de cabello negro y los ojos verdes, son los que más me ATRAEN. Pero para mantenerme interesada me tienen que hacer reir, enseñarme algo, pelear conmigo y preferiblemente que coman, respiren y vivan por la música.

Si en algún momento vuelvo a tener novio y me preguntan "Que te gustó de el" jamás escucharán un "Es que está bien guaaaaaapooooo" (como tristemente he escuchado muchas veces). En realidad, muy pocas veces me impacta alguien a primera vista (así de mamila y exigente soy cuando se trata del mero físico) a menos que me pongan a un huerito ojiverde mega peludo en frente grrr jajajajaja. El chiste, es que si me llegaran a preguntar eso, respondería tal vez con un "Me rio como loca con el" o "Nos gusta la misma banda" y tal vez un "Sabe mucho y siempre tiene algo interesante que contar" pero un "Es que esta belloooo" no es una opción. Si detrás de una hermosa cara no tiene dos centavos de personalidad está out.

Hay mucho tipito guapo que se sabe guapo, que ni se esfuerza por tener algo con que agradar, sabe que las pendejas se le tirarán encima solo por su cara. Conozco a miles de esos y super mega hueva. Hasta el amor de mi vida no fue amor a primera vista, así que el fisico para mi no es impedimento alguno para que alguien me guste. Y digo "gustar" como termino BIEN, de "Ese me GUSTA"... atraerme, me pueden atraer mil pero no para lo mismo jejeje.

Y al final del día, mis gustos son MIS gustos y que les valga verga! :D

Al buen entendedor pocas canciones...

Es bien sabido que yo soy "Canción para cada ocación" y mil canciones me recuerdan muchos momentos, no importa si son del pasado o del presente, pero cuando digo "Esta es mi canción" es precisamente por que en algún momento me proyecto con ella, puede ser una linea, una estrofa o la canción entera, pero me proyecto. Y bueno, mi última fijación musical se centra en Pearl Jam y ya tengo un playlist que habla por si solito, no dudo que con el tiempo y mientras más escuche a la banda le vaya agregando más canciones, pero por el momento aquí una semi-biografía musical.

I admit it...what's to say...yeah...
I'll relive it...without pain...mmm...
Backseat lover on the side of the road
I got a bomb in my temple that is gonna explode
I got a sixteen gauge buried under my clothes, I pray...
Once upon a time I could CONTROL myself
Ooh, once upon a time I could LOSE myself, yeah...

Oh, try and mimic what's insane...ooh, yeah...
I am in it...where do I stand?
Oh, Indian summer and I hate the heat
I got a backstreet lover on the passenger seat
I got my hand in my pocket, so determined, discreet...I  pray...

Once upon a time I could CONTROL myself
Ooh, once upon a time I could LOSE myself, yeah, yeah...

You think I got my eyes closed
But I'm lookin' at you the whole fuckin' time...

Ooh, once upon a time I could control myself, yeah...
Once upon a time I could lose myself, yeah, yeah, yeah...
Once, upon a time I could love myself, yeah...
Once upon a time I could love you, yeah, yeah, yeah...

Once (4x)
Yeah...once, once...yeah, yeah...
Yeah...yeah, yeah...yeah, yeah...oww...

Sheets of empty canvas, untouched sheets of clay
Were laid spread out before me as her body once did
All five horizons revolved around her soul
As the earth to the sun;
Now the air I tasted and breathed has taken a turn

Ooh, and all I taught her was everything...
Ooh, I know she gave me all that she wore...

And now my bitter hands chafe beneath the clouds
Of what was everything?
Oh, the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...

I take a walk outside,
I'm surrounded by some kids at play...
I can feel their laughter, so why do I sear?

Oh, and twisted thoughts that spin round my head...
I'm spinning, oh, I'm spinning-
How quick the sun can.. drop away....

And now my bitter hands cradle broken glass
Of what was everything?
All the pictures have all been washed in black, tattooed everything...
All the love gone bad turned my world to black
Tattooed all I see, all that I am, all I will be... Yeah...

I know someday you'll have a beautiful life, I know you'll be the sun
In somebody else's sky, but why? Why?
Why can't it be, why can't it be mine?

mm-hmm no yeah no
mm mmmm no nonono yeah yeah
we-
we belong
we belong together
together
oooh ooh
we-
we belong
we belong together
oh yeah

If I keep holding out
Will the light shine through?
Under this broken roof
It's only rain that I feel
I've been wishin' out the days
Oh oh oh
Come back

I have been planning out
All that I'd say to you
Since you slipped away
Know that I still remain true
I've been wishin' out the days
Please say that if you hadn't have gone now
I wouldn't have lost you another way
From wherever you are
Oh oh oh oh
Come back

And these days, they linger on, yeah, yeah
And in the night, I've been waiting for
The real possibility that I may meet you in my dreams
I go to sleep

If I don't fall apart
Will my memory stay clear?
So you had to go
And I had to remain here
But the strangest thing today
So far away and yet you feel so close
I'm not going to question it any other way
There must be an open door for you
To come back

And the days they linger on, yeah
And every night what I'm waiting for
Is the real possibility that I may meet you in my dreams
Sometimes you're there and you're talking back to me
Come the morning I could swear that you're next to me
And it's ok

It's ok, it's ok

I'll be here
Come back, come back
I'll be here
Come back, come back
I'll be here
Come back, come back
Oooooooo
Oooooooo
Oooooooo

I seem to recognize your face
Haunting, familiar yet, I can't seem to place it
Cannot find the candle of thought to light your name
Lifetimes are catching up with me
All these changes taking place, I wish I'd seen the place
But no one's ever taken me
Hearts and thoughts they fade, fade away... (2x)

I swear I recognize your breath
Memories like fingerprints are slowly raising
me, you wouldn't recall, for I'm not my former
It's hard when you're stuck upon the shelf
I changed by not changing at all, small town predicts my fate
Perhaps that's what no one wants to see
I just want to scream...hello...
My god its been so long, never dreamed you'd return
But now here you are, and here I am
Hearts and thoughts they fade...away...

Hearts and thoughts they fade, fade away... (2x)
Hearts and thoughts they fade...fade away...
Hearts and thoughts they fade, fade away... (3x)
Hearts and thoughts they fade...

I see the world, feel the chill
Which way to go, windowsill
I see the words on a rocking horse of time
I see the birds in the rain
Ohh...ohh...ohh...ohh...

Oh, dear dad, can you see me now
I am myself, like you somehow
I'll ride the wave where it takes me
I'll hold the pain...Release me...
Ohh...ohh...ohh...ohh...

Oh, dear dad, can you see me now
I am myself, like you somehow
I'll ride the wave where it takes me
I'll hold the pain...Release me...
Ohh...ohh...ohh...ohh..

Oh, dear dad, can you see me now
I am myself, like you somehow
I'll wait up in the dark for you to speak to me
I'll open up...Release me...
Release me (3x)
Ohh...ohh...ohh...ohh..

A la última le quitamos el Dad y... puff!. Como digo, no todas las canciones las tomo literal, a algunas les doy cierto significado diferente a las frases, como es el caso de Release y Once, otras si puede ser bien literal como Elderly Woman y Come Back, pero en si, en ese orden cuento una larga etapa de mi vida que se cierra con Release. Y recalco, no quiere decir que esa historia importe hoy, pero oir estas canciones (en ese orden) como que me dan flashbacks. Ya en desorden, me recuerdan otras cosas también jeje. Ahorita estoy traumada con Black horrorosamente, sobre todo con la última estrofa "Why can't it be mine?" esa pregunta siempre me retumbará el cerebro por lo visto jajaja... ya, me voy a dormir, tantas noches sin dormir ya está empezando a afectarme.